Life is

2010-10-17T02:49:00.002+08:00

time flies. we are now in the last quarter of the year.

i had a great time in Bali, my pre birthday celebration! we visited the clubs and Rock Bar, i really think that place is great and can't wait to go there again!

someone has promised to take me there but not likely to come true for next year.

we have another trip in mind already :) that's it to heal our spiritual mind and body and perhaps make a decision. this is always the time of the year that I cant stop feeling nervous and strained due to exams. I just hope that I can finish my studies fast and do something to my liking after this. after almost 9 months, im feeling glad once again for what I have decided to do and finding cliques for after work activities. hmm, i think being 25 and being who I am today, it feels great although things doesnt come easy. i should be proud of myself and judge less. i wish exams are over soon!

whines

2010-08-11T13:54:00.003+08:00

can we love and not get hurt? most probably not.
i heard that things you see on tv is a re-enactment of the reality, how true? I was watching this part on tv last night which i very much hope it will come true for me in reality.
prays.

Ignorance is bliss

2010-08-11T13:49:00.003+08:00

ignorance is bliss.

Be happy

2010-08-11T13:40:00.002+08:00

i attended a valuable lesson yesterday and agreed with what the person said. It is quite easy to be happy. Ïf you compare yourself to someone who is better, you naturally feel that you are less able. However, if you compare yourself to someone who has achieved lesser than you, you may feel you have gained the world and be happy. It is this simple.

into year 2010

2010-01-17T03:28:00.002+08:00

i was thinking whether to start with a new blog but decided not to in the end.

all has been well for me for the year 2009 although it was hectic at work and in school.

i've got regrets or rather, things which should be settled by year 2009 was not done, not a big deal, my wisdom teeth. :)

the year ended peacefully, cleared my leave during xmas and new year's week so had quite a good rest..

it is now mid Jan, finally got another wisdom tooth removed and 5 days of mc at home.

rested quite a while and led a carefree lifestyle for weeks, staying up at night to watch videos and late night snacks...the reality is here again, time to return to work and school! hope to do better this semester, remove 2 more wisdom teeth, spend less and perform better at work!

2009-07-23T23:42:00.003+08:00

i had a dream.

2009-05-12T13:55:00.001+08:00

who's the cutest? :D

2009-04-25T23:04:00.001+08:00

It perks me up when the clock strikes six on Fridays unknowingly. Perhaps the fact that I could sleep late nights and need not worry of not being able to wake up early the next day!

Cast aside my work, chuck my mobile somewhere and think nothing. even my appointment with Celia was thrown out of my mind until i checked my mobile later.

was busy doing some powerpoint slides till 3am. knocked out when i was on the bed until this morning. the black bean sparerib soup that i ate at yesterday's lunch kept circling in my mind so without a second thought, went to the market and got the required. and i had it for dinner!

watching "Queen of the housewives" now. it just reminded me that life is a drama-everyone is hiding behind their masks. sad.

2009-04-23T22:20:00.003+08:00

let's backtrack

didnt like vday-because i spent it at home alone

vday is significant in some ways, perhaps it is marketed that it is the day to express our love, celebrate our love and propose to tell everyone that we are in love and to have a family. that's why i was hoping to be told that I'm loved-by simple gesture (a home-cooked dinner for the budget conscious?) received a bouquet of red roses but...

not going to talk about it anymore, hoping to have a complete vday next year, in year 2010!

have been really busy at work and losing sleep over it sometimes.

better now but i was caught by some unknown virus that made me cough non-stop

do hope to recover soon and have my favourite ice cream and chilled drinks...

trying to plan for a short getaway for myself after working hard but seems like it is not going to happen. perhaps shall wait till Jul/Aug.

2009-01-28T01:22:00.002+08:00

it contradicts. just hope to make good use of all the time I have and not wasting my youth away.
stopped school for quite some time and hope to work doubly hard when school commences in july later this year. this will keep me really busy and grumpy because of the travelling here and there and having lesser sleep.

felt more fortunate as compared to those who suffered from illnesses, but less fortunate to those who have found the meaning in everything. or rather i have lost the meaning of certain things. Still, my 23 years of living is a fruitful one, seeing most things clearly and now, learning to take things easy because nothing is perfect in this world.

i am quite paranoid but it does not make me do extremes. Still rational. but sometimes, been forced to act irrationally. I see the difference in school and workplace now, and I think I learnt the most at work. For good or for worse.

i thought i know how to love but it seems like i'm born a loser in love. perhaps the wrong one at the right time or right one at the wrong time? life is all deception. Cheaters rule.

2008-12-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

despite the economic situation, orchard road never fail to bring the xmas mood in everyone, with all the fanciful lightings and ornaments. Last but not least, the crowd with loads of shopping bags.I felt the same when I was walking along the street and also picked up a gift for special someone.

visited new places such as DXO, been to Esplanade Mall so many times, over and over again, but never did we step into DXO. Recommended by my sis and could not resist the temptation of barbequed stingray and my favourite chicken wings. Although the music played at Beach Cabana was loud until the sound of the waves was kept under it, I could still feel it at heart, and I love this place. I have checked that there are many places which I have not been to, hence jotting them down in my notebook and hope to check them out.

Simple dinner but sinful dessert on xmas eve. Love NYDC solid gold to bits! chill out next.

Some catching up with ex colleagues on xmas day. After chit chat session, meet mum and aunt at Raffles City to shop for accessories for cousin's wedding dinner next week. We were lucky to finish shopping for everything in just half a day. Amazing!

Army market!! I have never stopped loving chocolate, simply indulge in fondue with waffle and ice cream after a plate of chicken chop. Put a smile to my face on a Friday night. Beach Cabana and home sweet home.

2008-12-06T03:50:00.003+08:00

L-O-V-E is hard for me to comprehend,
giving me hope and brings live to my life,
on a bad note, creating havoc and keeps me all uptight.

i have a phobia and it contradicts.
phobia to love someone,
and also not having a love of my life.

what is going on in my mind?
i find no meaning to life without love.

i waited, fate is just not knocking at my door till this moment.

2008-11-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

what is love?
4 letter word but complex for the way it is.

so many kinds of love, love for selfish gains, love for money, love for material wants..
skewed but that is what others made it to be. all thanks to the jerks out there.

everything is predestined in its own way. not all, but still it exists.

all you have to do is pray, for the better.

2008-11-22T11:28:00.005+08:00

what do you know about love?

saying "I love you"/ "I do",
he comes even before yourself,
thinking of him every now and then,
missing him during his absence,
doing every single thing for him,
even giving him the last breath of yours...

superficial. it takes two hands to clap, heard that see that?

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and also, what do you know about life?

life has its unexpected twist and turns that made you giddy till you wanna puke,
but at times, you felt you were at the top of the world. so sweet till you melt.
however, most of the time, it is a horrifying bumpy ride.
"things happen for a reason" more like for infinite no. of reasons.
and it made you stronger, fitter to fight in human war. I do agree.

being 23, i guessed i have experienced pretty much, the ugly facts of life and when love turned ugly and sour. it is a blessing in disguise.
fight me if you want,
if you felt you are winning or you have won, believe it or not, I have not fought back.
win in glory, not behind closed doors, not behind someone's back,
my intuition tells me that no matter how daredevil you are, you lost to my heart of gold,
something that made me always a winner.
i complained, grumbled and whined when times are bad, don't you?
on a better note, i found my soul mates, people who are always giving and loved me for who I am.
tell others that you understood love because i also love you for how much you love me.
i struggled and surviving...
fight fate and win yourself a world of hope, love and bits of everything.
voluntary disqualify when you surrender your soul to god.
closing date when you breathe your last.

cheers.

2008-11-15T16:46:00.002+08:00

a very laid back place;but the natural scenery has put me in a relaxed setting and how i wish i could stay longer.

place for relaxation and recuperation.

i snapped these while having dinner. i hug the sunset.

2008-11-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

i am back from holidays!
thumbs up to this trip!

2008-10-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

lovely tuesday
have long wanted to dine at indulgz bistro, finally got the chance.
interior is beautifully done up, love the atmosphere, but not the menu because of the lack of variety and doesnt appeal to my tastebud much.
visited another new place, named oosters, the fruit beer is not too bad, worth the try.

romantic, hot & steamy wednesday
intended to get a "petti-coat" for my luminous top/dress, nightie in fact.
didnt buy anything in the end.
stomach was growling madly, so headed for our steamboat dinner... ate pretty much and we do enjoyed!

fun thursday
it was a shopping craze and not to mention, the love of food...

2 days to my long awaited trip..

2008-10-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

best Monday i have ever had so far.
slight blues in the morning but everything went on smoothly for the rest of the day.
perhaps i found peace, after so long.
also received encouraging sms-es and really great feeling to know that i am missed and there is someone standing by me. even if it was a lie, i am still glad to hear that. time tells it all.
nice dinner and followed by frappucino chocolate, omg, it tastes bland and it is supposed to taste like this, according to the staff. i wasnt convinced so i got them to add sugar into it, which made the drink slightly more consumable. the day ended like this.
:)

2008-10-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

backtrack to our bdays

on the eve of bday, my sis had a party at home, her 21st bday party, invited all my relatives and her friends. i was home but went out soon before all my relatives arrived and missed the cake-cutting and photo-taking. i was at Fort Canning Park, catching an outdoor movie screening, for the very first time it is happening locally. The place was packed, and luckily i found a not-too-bad place to lay my mat and rest comfortably till the film runs end.

the clock struck twelve, here comes my bday! received my present and card with love.
also received two big flashy balloons...
dined at a secluded place, but ambience was good, and they allowed pets to be brought in.
something different from other years and i definitely enjoyed very much.

September, wasnt a good month for me, because my results was released then. wasnt ideal and i thought i should just give it up and think elsewhere. it just brought everything to a dip, until now. hoping to start afresh and give in my best, for the very last time. i promised.

6 more days to my short getaway. rest my mind and relax my soul, before moving on.
starting afresh and also doing something bold... out of my usual self.
meanwhile, catch up with those which i have neglected..
cheers to myself!

2008-08-05T22:20:00.006+08:00

有些时候, 我真想知道什么是所谓的快乐
把烦恼,
把忧愁, 抛到九霄云外
少点要求和欲望

话说回来, 这是快乐吗?
我倒不觉得.

2008-07-18T01:04:00.002+08:00

life is like a closed up roller-coaster;
having its unexpected ups and downs, twists and turns...

2008-07-03T22:05:00.003+08:00

reality has never been a delightful experience for all, and it is the same for this time.
in the twinkling of the eye, im going back to school, struggling to keep myself awake and attentive in class despite a long tiring day at work.
going home to rest or planning for a wonderful evening with friends after work will then be sacrificed.
on the positive side, i just hope to befriend more wonderful/interesting people in school, so that my life will never get boring.

sidenote: my organiser is filled with "activities", it is all about learning.

aftermath:unwell

2008-06-15T10:56:00.005+08:00

feeling emotional.
due to unknown reasons.
could it be that i'm sick, upcoming schedule,...?

Attended bowling event at Orchid Country Club on Saturday.
It was a flop;unimaginably.
Catch the show "Sex and the City", went shopping at Velocity (my very first time there), tried famous chicken rice at Balestier and lastly, party time.
Super long day but I had fun. brought by bunny.

Buys: Keds shoes. cheers.

Joyous moment

2008-06-15T10:32:00.005+08:00

exams are finally over.
have also finished set of reports at work.
jumps*

gorgeous.view from hotel room.

shopping paradise.my love.

place we belong.chinatown.

toxic.weapon to kill.

Lazy and stressful weekend!

2008-06-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

weekend solely for revision.
nevertheless, i still part-ied. the usual hangout.
happy. could have been happier.
can't wait to declare that my last paper is going to be over soon.
after which, i am looking forward to loads of late nights and never to be missed, holidays.

have not decided on the destination to date.
after presentation on wed, i can get down to work out list of activities to engage in for the month of June.
it has to be the best June ever! happy.happier.happiest.

2008-05-19T08:03:00.002+08:00

happiness is how you define it to be.
i am happy.
cherish and embrace the present.
live happily.

when compared to less fortunate, i am the more fortunate.
no matter how hard life is, i am grateful that i am able to see this world in each brand new day, giving me a chance to live and derive happiness differently.

signoff,
violet (screams, "i luv my life!") ;*

2008-05-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

i am hoping to hear this. Because of you, I have decided and want to settle down.

I may not be the one walking the aisle with you, which i resent. But I would still be glad to have made this change in you.

it is never the same, maybe some were right that it spells mini sparks within but due to some reasons, it stagnates.

on a positive side, this may be better. i am still a strong believer in fate. maybe fate will come knocking at my door some day.

2008-04-30T20:34:00.002+08:00

leave me alone.

about love. i'm nowhere near.

can you tell me this is love?
i felt uneasy when I hear that you have someone else.
i thought of you when someone held me tight.
I care about you.

because of the fear that I would lose you one day, I pulled myself away from you.

once bitten twice shy, i am afraid to get hurt again.

if i am given a chance to turn back the time, i would want to hold you tight.

2008-04-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

im not a superwoman!
i still need the essentials, air, water, food, adequate rest...

being a superwoman, i think i have certain qualities that shine out from the rest. on the bad side, i felt as though i own the dumping ground. i take in whatever has been dumped, like sponge absorbs liquid.

i also understood, life is never fair!
when it's time to move on, i shall move on...
time waits for no man...

2008-04-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling better today.
perhaps i've been convinced that losing the job, the bonus is really not the issue anymore.
parting has never been easy and this time round, it is equally hard because there are no concrete reasons for me to leave my job.
i miss those amazing days but i have understood that happiness is short-lived. So be it, at the very least, it is there as part of my memory. i'll just be thankful for the occurrence.

2008-04-04T18:43:00.003+08:00

my life. 'messy' is the word to describe it best.
got all worried and tensed up due to exams next month.
foresee piles of report to be finished up at work in early May and June.
I have always thought that stress is good, but this is way too much to handle.
Weak, i refute, in fact i am getting stronger ever since.

All I hoped for is to clear my exam this year!
signoff, princess XOXO

2008-03-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

Even if it was a dream, it came to me real
I could feel the warmth when our fingers crossed
I could visualise the thoughts running through our mind when our eyes meet
I could feel your heartbeat when I fell deep into your arms
I could not retaliate even it tolled on me

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2008-03-22T21:54:00.003+08:00

thanks to those who have been showering me with love,
give me more of it!
as for those who have been keeping it inside, show me your love!
I can't be living my life with dreams about you and me.
It is getting nowhere.

This song is about us.
I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to

I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will be so right

If you could see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side

Ohh Ohh Ohh
What will I do

2008-03-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

alright, just an update to remind myself that exams is starting in 2 months time.
put an end to my duper laziness and pls sleepy bug, stay away from me!!! Time is running out...

Had dinner with my lovely family on Saturday evening, great great great! And also, nice game with "laughing beans".

2008-02-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

without you, life isn't complete.

2008-02-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

Eve of CNY~
My sis and I were still doing our last minute shopping on the eve, having missed calls from mum and returned call, was told that she has forgotten this and that, ended up getting all the stuffs at econ mini mart. Haha.

I tried red bean flake shake from Mos Burger, it was pretty tasty and could have tasted tastier if the shake has not melted.

We helped out at the kitchen and soon, we had our reunion dinner. A few home-cooked dishes and my favourite steamboat. Everything went on smoothly. Yeah.

CNY~
All the relatives gathered at our house, went through the crowd and felt the size is shrinking...sad.

Something different from other New Year is that I swam on New Year's Day. Enjoyed myself because there were no one else. Total privacy. We also visited the temple and Mustafa Centre.

Fourth Day~
Went ktv with my family. Had an enjoyable time despite it was Monday the next day.
Looking forward to more happening event!

2008-01-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

Below are the pictures taken in Hokkaido.

2008-01-06T04:25:00.000+08:00

It started well, but anxiety for exams has built up in me...exams in May.
I felt insecure and sadness has made its way into my life.

Have seen too much of everything which made me felt that there is almost nothing I could look forward for. My happy ending in fairy tale is just a myth, never the truth.

I emphasized "Happiness is short-lived".

Exclaimed, Show me your love!

2008-01-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

Went bbq at East Coast Park on New Year's Day.
A family get-together to start off the new year, good!
In the new year, I am working hard to get everything in order and build a good foundation for whatever I want to accomplish in near future.

Today-Rest Day =)

2008-01-01T02:58:00.000+08:00

As mentioned in earlier post, many things happened during year 2007. It was a plunge ride. I am glad when the clock struck and here we are, year 2008.
Happy Blessed New Year! And it is gonna be a great year ahead.

signoff, princess XOXO

2007-12-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

Sis and I spree-ed! Last minute shopping.
No-no, not really for others, more for myself. Haha.
Lingerie day in fact!
I was enjoying myself even having to carry big bags, the feeling to be a super shopper is indescribably awesome.

On the Christmas Eve, had a sumptuous steamboat dinner with my family and ah ma.
Nothing much but it was so called a family gathering.

Christmas Day, we had a pool side party. Yeah, the function room was really beside the pool. Had buffet and everything ended pretty early, due to many of us have to work the next day. Better one next time round!

it was a great week, full of activities lined up.
Friday- Ex-sch gathering and drinking session with gals, Jeff, Jerry and Pat.
Saturday- Gathering over Pat's place and night cycling with auntie and cousins.
We did night cycling last night. From ECP, all the way to Changi Village. It was a long 2hrs journey but motivation to complete was tim sum...
Noel, he was crowned as the "buang" king.
The return trip was much better but many complained that butt is painful, esp Jason.

A day to recharge. Settled my travel thingy. Yeah, I gonna be off on the 13th Jan.

2007-12-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

looking forward to my hols, but I retreat at the thought of minus zero temperature...
at that moment, nothing beats better than going under the blanket.
equation: coldness = tardiness

2007-12-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

14 more days to a brand new year 2008.
During this year, I survived from deadly break-up, freaking results at school and ugly facts of life. I am a survivor!!!
I finally understood only through failure, you would achieve success.
I believed I have succeeded in one way or another. No visible results though.
I learnt to accept and acknowledge the existence, it was the "downs" which made me stronger. Stronger than yesterday.
I cried, I whined and I complained...
Lastly, I appreciate those hands who reach out to me when I really needed back then.
They are my family, friends and co-workers. They eased my heartache alittle...thanks for everything. Without all of you, I would not have come this far.
I felt that I won the battle. despite losing the other half...
I am hopeful that I would meet someone who knows how to appreciate and love me wholeheartedly, unlike you.
You gave me a chance to realise the importance of everyone around me and also a chance to have been more loved.

I really hope to do better in the new year. I really do.
I am your angel. Never let me go.
Signoff, princess XXX

2007-12-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

Done with Annual Dinner & Dance, pressies for colleagues and pressie for gift exchange. Finally freed from headache.

Going to order xmas lunch for coming Friday and plan for family xmas gathering. Year 2007 is going to be over soon...looking forward to my hols in Jan.

2007-11-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

finally.

1)settled my dress for Dinner and Dance
2)christmas pressies for my dearest colleagues

To Do...

1)Christmas present for gift exchange
2)accessories for Dinner and Dance
3)Tags for the candy
4)more pressies...

Lost touch

1)my books!!!

2007-11-20T02:30:00.000+08:00

8 more weeks to my long-awaited trip. I need it badly!
Meanwhile, trying to plan for a wonderful xmas dinner with my greatest family, getting a dress for company dinner & dance, present for gift exchange, catering on gift exchange day and my june trip after my exam.

2007-11-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

Louis Vuitton
Monogram Denim Mini Pleaty
omg, i love this!

2007-11-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

Fri~ Mum's bday

Had farewell lunch with Joan and colleagues at La Forketta. I just thought it is nice if we could do this often, basically an avenue to connect us together. Feeling great. We dropped by Le Meridien Hotel after lunch. The carpark was full, and I had to park at Orchard Plaza. Ghostly carpark, have to insert cashcard manually and the floor space is unimaginably limited. I came to realise that it was not too convenient when carpark is full, like this time round.

Met up for dinner at Dian Xiao Er Vivocity. It had been quite some time since we had dinner together. The food served were much to our liking (esp Sharks' Fin) but my pocket encountered a big hit. Ouch!

Spent sat evening to refresh memory of my childhood days, catching Doraemon show on the tv. How nice!

Other than catching a movie, I attended my first japanese lesson, drank at Clinic and had supper at Serangoon Gardens. Would love to visit Dempsey Road and Villa Billa some day.

2007-11-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

fallen in love with agatha doggie bone key chain. woah.

2007-10-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

mixed feelings.
i want pressies...

2007-10-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

i am looking forward to more challenges along the way.
satisfy me. my hunger for challenges.
i may be 22 but it is never too early to work my career.

2007-10-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

nails week~
I was obsessed, painted and put decorative stones on them.
Not once, but twice or thrice.
Pink finally!
There is not a single day I can say I live my life in an interesting way.
Everyday is a routine, except for today. Grins.
I woke up early, took breakfast before going to office to settle my work.
Went to town for dinner and shopping with my sis.
At last, we thought of Serangoon Gardens and there we go.
Had supper and ended our day at Liquid Kitchen.

I am looking forward to my hols in Jan. ")

2007-10-20T03:22:00.000+08:00

My company held their 2nd half meeting today, it was our first time being present for this event.Was told that it is boring but luckily, it was not too much on us. Talking about the pathway leading to the auditorium, simply reminds me of old times hospitals. Everything went on smoothly and ended even earlier than scheduled. Happy Hours!

2007-10-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

not in the mood for studies.
daydreaming.
i miss Switzerland.Zermatt-matterhorn.
bring me there, pls.

2007-10-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

i need hols badly.
will you grant my wish?

tomorrow is a better day ahead.

2007-10-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

8G plasma launch has finally come to an end.
It has kept all of us busy for the last weekend. all are exhausted but still, we made it through. Yea.
I have learnt to accept everything. Everything.
I survived and glad to know that i was one of the toughest out of all.
Thanks for the betrayal, backstabbing and lowly acts which has brought me to who I am today.
Tomorrow is a better day.
Signoff, princess XX

2007-09-09T14:09:00.000+08:00

Fri~
after 2.5 years, we have finally meet up.
it is always nice to have old pals around.
life at work has been a boredom, without them.
talk over dinner and went to sing at k-box.
met up with sis at Beauty World.
Taken supper and it was time to go home.
Looking forward to such gathering. =)

Beautiful Girls

2007-09-04T22:43:00.001+08:00

Chorus:
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 1:
See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Coz we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

Refrain:
See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

Chorus:
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 2:
It was back in '99
[ Beautiful Girls lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

Refrain:
See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

Chorus:
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 3:
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal,
when they say it's over

2007-09-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

21st Aug
we had our cross division dinner at Kuishinbo...

24th Aug
Thanks Candy for the awesome birthday celebration for Christina and myself.
We got to sing, drink and party.
I longed for more.

25th Aug
I have clearly forgotten about today's LBO Test.
Despite that, I atttended the lecture.
It was nice having my mum and sis waiting for me after my class.
We went queensway to photocopy LBO Text and followed by dinner.

27th Aug to 02 Sep
Bday celebration week.
Pretty held up by work, therefore the little screwed up bday plan.
Thanks Joan for the yummy bday cake from Four Seasons Hotel.
Lunch at Kuishinbo, amazed by the varieties of food that my sis and grandma had.
Except for the raw~
A day to let your hair down and enjoy as much as possible.
Had dinner with my family before continuing with our usual prog.
Nothing special and this is how we spend the weekends ever since.
I need recruitment drive to get new members to join our "laughing beans" group, preferably a bf.
We cooped ourselves up in the hotel, savouring poulet with red wine.
We had eaten quite alot.
My initial plan has crashed, the pool was closed.
My blindfolded sis was brought to the corridor (with beautiful lightings) instead. Nice ambience though.

2007-08-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

the ugly truth has been unveiled...
the wrap up of the fabricated story was even more happening than shows' grand finale.
this has acted as a wake up call to his lowly move.
I despise his guts and everything...! F off!

He should have dug a hole in fastest possible time to hide his bloody face at that point of time, however, it was actually a turning point of my life.

I have been nice not to spit on you, a total disgrace to MEN. pui.

~on behalf of my mum

2007-08-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

Mon~
Lesson as usual.
Accompanied by my favourite drink, ice milk tea with pearls/jelly.

Tue~
Went vivo after work to source for bday gifts.

Wed~ day before National Day
Attended lesson before going over to Patrick's place for gathering.
Had steamboat and ktv session.
Ended everything at around 2am.

Thurs~
Watched the movie "Secret" by Jay with bro at Cathay Cineleisure.
Met many of his friends there, many were like, is that your sis?
Yeah. How am i related to him then?

Fri~
Spent the evening recuperating at home.

Sat~
Yeah, had a tan at Sentosa. It had been ages since we last went to Sentosa.
Had a dip in the water and volleygame.
Sun burnt.
Had dinner at Far East Plaza.
Pool all the way till 2am..

Sun~ Lazy Sunday
Stayed at home and ordered 933 home.
Bad toothache.

2007-08-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

Totally drained out for the whole of last week. Dun get it too.
It was Friday, and we had a farewell party for Bell and Komori-san. The feeling is indescribably good when someone appreciates your effort.
Waye, Patrick and I went for wine tasting session in the evening.
Night out with sister and granny to prawning. Till dawn.

Supposed to wake up at 7am and get myself prepared. Due to sleeping late, I woke up only at 8am. I went crazy, dashed to the toilet for my shower and dress up before I could put on make-up. Eventually, I did the make-up on the way there.
Had a great time bowling with my colleagues despite my unsightly throw and hopeless score! Laughs.
Went straight to school after my bowling. I was busy sms-ing throughout the lesson, planning what to do for later part of the day. Eventually, we had our ktv session with aunt, cousins and bro. It was better than expected.
Prawning again!

Went Central with bro and granny. Super bad experience with cab driver again!
Dinner at Ma Maison. Hokkaido ice-cream for dessert. Ate the tiny donuts...
We complained. We want more food!
Ultimately we went to Tong shui cafe along river valley for early supper.
We went home after that.

getsu youbi~
Had lunch with my department at Hog's Breath cafe at Vivocity.
The view from the restaurant is superb. How I wish we could have a short getaway at Sentosa right after that...the feeling is just right...

2007-07-29T06:03:00.000+08:00

Mon to Thurs~
All about work and school...

Fri~
It was my very first time going for the late night shopping at Orchard Road when I have mentioned it over and over again. haha. Looking forward to it...
Had dinner ( all abt dumplings.)at Lao Beijing. Love the "tenderness" of the dumpling outerlayer and the juice oozing in your mouth.
There was nothing special about late night shopping.
We ended up playing pool at Cineleisure.
-the night-

Sat~
Hi-tea buffet at Holiday Inn Parkview.
Those food were much to my liking but the sauces or the preparation are way too saltish. What a waste.
But still, I have enjoyed myself.
The end of day programme was prawning. Yea I simply could not recall the last time I actually went prawning.
I think there should be more of this in future. My family ROCKS- unlike...

2007-07-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

Planned to have dinner with my family at Esplanade-Colours by the bay.
We changed our location to i dim sum gastronomic at the later part.
The food tasted alright but the price was rather steep. It totalled to 85 for 3 of us.
Walked around marina square until it closes at ten.

Sat~
Went for facial.
After that, bro and I went to check out the new shopping mall-Central at Clarke Quay.
Nothing much...the shops sell stuffs similar to Bugis village or rather Far East Plaza.
Wanted to have lunch at Ma Maison but it was closed!
Walked the whole stretch of Orchard...until my legs turned wobbly.
Walk, shop and eat...we are going CRAZY!

2007-07-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

The feeling was great when I walked out of the office building this evening.
I have been working so hard, OT till dawn or evenings set for lectures.
Met up my bro for Harry Potter show at Great World City.
I went into the theatre without him after 25 mins wait. The ku-ku actually took a wrong bus and ended up at Pasir Panjang.
He missed the first 45 minutes of the show.It was nothing since the ending was somehow predictable.
I slept throughout the show...probably have not been having sufficient rest for the past weeks.
Bought a top and dress from Zara. There goes my money before month-end...
Had supper and headed home after that.

2007-07-15T04:51:00.000+08:00

Tue~
Planned to work overtime for my compilation initially but went off soon after my aunt called to arrange having dinner with my family.
Had "zi char" at Holland V and headed Vivocity for the sake of my M'phosis bag.
Haha. Been ages since we last had dinner together.
Enjoyable time but exhausted at the end of the day.

Wed~
ladies night but not exactly for me, it was my "lesson night" in fact.

Thurs & Fri~
OT!

2007-07-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

class gathering last Sat, the "turn-up" rate is so poor.
had dinner at Ajisen, followed by arcade and ended with a cup of blended mocha at starbucks the cathay.
went ktv with my siblings. Yeah.
After ktv session at 2.20am, we had our supper at Xin wang restaurant at Cineleisure.
Filling and satisfying... yeah they enjoyed very much because it was my treat.
Haha.

2007-07-07T04:09:00.000+08:00

have not had sufficient sleep for this whole week.
i am glad that my last working day was kick-started by our blu ray press conference.
It was really nice meeting some of these people coming from another field.
To us, their nature of job is versatile and fun when there are events and you get to meet many people. However, it may not be true at all times.

Went out for bday celebration with Sebastian during lunch today. Thanks for buying us cake as a form of appreciation.

4.24am, time to sleep!

2007-07-04T03:19:00.000+08:00

3.20am now, gonna sleep soon.
I have lesson on tomorrow evening as well...

2007-07-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

Thanks Jerry for helping me to make a trip to SIM for last minute course payment.
Was rather sleepy in the afternoon after being at the graph for so long.
Had a pear and chocolates to keep me awake.
Everything was back to normal then.
Today is my first day of school.
The lecturer turned out to be better than those i have seen in my year one.
Interesting module-business law
I have learnt something at the end of the day, that's decent!
Hope to have happier days ahead.

When are we partying again?

2007-07-02T02:16:00.000+08:00

Fri~zouk night
the djs were not that fantastic as expected.
i'm glad that the second dj got the champion for his more outstanding performance out of four.
enjoyed my dearies company to the fullest. love you gals.

went for a short getaway during the weekend.
there were not many things for us to do there.
plain window-shopping and eating.
ate at the restaurant which Melinda has recommended me, followed by a glass of root beer float from A&W.
can't remember the last time I had root beer float. hahas.
met up with Amelia at batam, we both commented the same about it.
there was practically nothing to do at night, went over Meiru's room to play daidee.
I was really amused by her friend, Jeremy's questions.
5 of a kind? and the 5 cards he gathered?
it was okay overall, averaged out by their company.

2007-06-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

Longest working day ever~
But I really enjoyed myself to the max.
Communication is important;it brings us to understand one another.

Coming Friday would be another happening night for us.
Laughs.
No hangover pls.
And, dun miss the timing for the ferry on Saturday.
The other thing is...I may be meeting a friend whom I have never spoken in person after knowing for 7 years on this Sunday.

2007-06-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

I am indulging myself in too much junk food.Argh~
Those food that i have stocked weekly is all eaten by me and no one else.
Can you imagine the grams of saturated fats, fats and cholestrol I take in every single day? It is extremely scary.
I could not sleep a day without chocolate, sour candies and chips.
Stop that disturbing craves~
Gonna sleep...I have tonnes of work to do tomorrow.

2007-06-24T05:25:00.000+08:00

I went Wisma today, I seriously could not remember the last time I have been there.
Went into shops like topshop, hula & co and all time favourite, forever21.
Got myself a cardigan and 2 dresses throughout.
Before i actually finished shopping at wisma, we had to leave because of our ktv at 8pm.
We sang till 11pm.
The next stop, St James Power Station.
It was boring initially, but as long as we stayed there, we enjoyed pretty much.
Yeah, somemore we got free drinks.
Gotta catch some sleep soon..

2007-06-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

finally 金曜日.
having outbreak this week, upset me a little...
I could not think of a reason for the sudden outbreak, hereby i conclude that i am thinking too much.
I have even drawn up a plan for my next 2 years.

2007-06-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

水曜日

ladies night no more...
it was happy partying but disastrous the next day.
it was a challenge to me, and I made it through!!
it was a dull wednesday, indulge myself in junk food (as usual) and "Full House".
Rain's character in "Full House" reminds me of someone.
What's there to hide when you care for her?

木曜日

I have been thinking alot during my shower...
It is beneficial for me...

2007-06-19T19:17:00.001+08:00

Lazy legs...always reliant on cab to take me to work.

This is the week to replenish my energy for busy weeks ahead. And, my class is going to commence soon...

2007-06-17T13:00:00.000+08:00

Raindrops keep falling on my head...

2007-06-16T15:07:00.000+08:00

Pics taken at Kuishinbo.
My very first time going for Japanese buffet.
It was costly but valued for the variety of food served in the restaurant.
Thanks Fu-sao for the sumptuous dinner.
Had a great time catching up with all of you.

Thanks Jerry and Jaeret for the ride to and fro.

Sidenote: We missed the lower delta exit and headed towards AYE. Haha.

2007-06-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

Thanks man for helping me with my template.

Had a great time with my dearies last night.
They are a fun lot to be with. Looking forward to more parties...
No more wed parties for us, Friday and Saturday is a better idea.

Kui shinbo buffet dinner tomorrow.

2007-06-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

I have organised a party on Wed! ;P
Yeah...

2007-06-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

~Sunday~
A great weekend spent with my family and friends! I was occupied and without realisation that today is actually Sunday.
Time to slog tomorrow. Haha.
Not to be forgotten, it is my precious Nana's bday.
Happy Birthday to Baby Nana!
I am trying to forget but some things are hard to be forgotten, no matter how hard you try.
I'm trying guys...
Give me a chance...

2007-06-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

~Saturday~

Went shopping again!
Went to trade my mobile for a new one as well. I have overspent before my salary is deposited in my account. Argh.
Steamboat dinner with my family. I love all this get-together! Ktv later in the night.
Met up with Meiru and Sherin at St James...
I love all of them!

2007-06-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

~Friday~
Drove to "the summit" for lunch today. Haha.
Had a great time catching up with my colleagues once again.
Sales meeting-time for a break...
Our date to St James was called off...

Sidenote: I dropped my mobile into the toilet bowl...yucks!

2007-06-07T01:52:00.000+08:00

I just visited xiaxue's blog. I agree with her that guys who have sex with whores are LOSERS. They rather divorce their wives, abandon their kids in order to be with these whores. I do not care about their reasons for working as whores but they are definitely not people who we should sympathise with. China whores expecially.You find mostly chinese whores along the streets of Geylang.

What they want from Singaporean guys are citizenship, money and they do not mind being humiliated as a human being. Singaporean guys are too naive, taken in by their words and give in to them (money, flat, supplementary card...). A bunch of IDIOTS.
I would rather see them having sex with a bitch (female dog) than whores. They might just get AIDs from whores and die pitifully.

Our sex education is not of help. They have premarital sex and even whores as their sex partners. Gosh!

2007-06-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

"All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy". I am becoming one for my monotonous weekdays life. Weekend has been fair to me, making up for the other days of the week.

2007-06-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

I just went to stock up my food supplies.
I am a junkie monster.
Beware of me.
I had my dinner around 8pm, drank soursop juice, had butter bread and potato chips.
All I am thinking of is FOOD...
Feed me...

2007-06-04T01:53:00.000+08:00

It is 2am in the morning now, and I have got work tomorrow.
What is happening to me?
I just cannot get myself to sleep. Argh.
My precious, put me to sleep.

2007-06-03T04:03:00.000+08:00

Awakened by my grandma's tv this morning, it was loud as ever.
Got up to shower, dress up before going to the post office.
Yeah, to the post office, I can't remember the last time I went to a post office, at least a couple of years ago.
You would be shocked if you know how much I have paid for the postage for 43 dvds.
It was a difference of almost twenty dollars if I have separated both.
Felt relieved when I walked out of the post office.( my job is done.)

Have not had my lunch so I went over to Subway to takeaway Tuna sandwich. I was told that their cheese has been out of stock when I am making payment at the cashier. That is so... I did not pursue and walk out of the shop.

I am gaining weight after eating all sorts of junk food and frequent supper.Argh.

2007-06-02T03:15:00.000+08:00

=First Day of Work=

I have been hoping to have a change of job...
Fair enough, i landed myself under product planning department.
Although it is something entirely new to me, I felt it is definitely a good start.

Received a few encouragement messages, I really appreciate them.

Loves.

2007-04-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

argh, I want longer hair. So that I need not do hair extension! I want the big curls which may do wonder to my volume-less hair.

A week staying at home has made me flabby, I think of rest and food so often.

Dar, take me out for exercise.

2007-03-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

I'll be going shopping tonight.

Hopefully, I can find something which I like and value for money.

From today onwards, I will be relying on my savings. Sobs.

2007-03-23T09:48:00.001+08:00

Your Body Image is 4% Unhealthy, 96% Healthy

You have a great body image. You know that no one looks perfect, and you're happy the way you are.
Also, you don't judge other people on their looks... and it helps them feel better about their own bodies!

How's Your Body Image?

2007-03-23T09:33:00.000+08:00

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.
You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.
While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.
You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

2007-03-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

Dar and I will usually head Adam Road Food Centre for supper after my class has ended. Recently, we got tired of the food there. Thus, I suggested eating Ponggol Nasi Lemak.

The food has arrived and we were eating while chatting away happily. Then, we heard some noises, my back was actually facing them. A mid-20s guy and a middle age man were standing in the middle of the road, the younger guy was holding table stand and swaying away. Some of them went to stop them from fighting. I thought everything has ended at that point of time.

Unexpectedly, this mid-20s guy came out from the kitchen with a beer bottle and his head was covered with fresh blood. He then went to the middle of the road, shouting for the middle age man as the back door is near the road. Next, he took a long knife and hid behind his back, asking for the man again.Action packed.

We were told by the drink stall helper who was wanting to take order from us that they frequently fight, but I think after visiting the place for so long, this is our first time encountering it.
... ...

To me, the mid-20s guy has lower than average EQ. It could be his way to attract the attention of the public.

2007-03-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

The test is indeed true, I am born in the year of Ox.;>

2007-03-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are solid, methodical, and you do things right the first time.

Even when no one else does, you always believe in yourself.

You tend to see the world in black and white, right or wrong.

A good memory and eye for details means you tend to thrive at near impossible tasks.

You are most compatible with a Snake or Rooster.

What Year Should You Have Been Born Under?

2007-03-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is high.
It's your way or the highway when it comes to love.
You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life.
No question, you like to be the one calling the shots.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is high.
Sure you believe in love, but you know it doesn't come easily.
You scoff at "love at first site" and "soumates."
You rather take the real thing, as unglamorous as it is.

Independence:

Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

2007-03-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

Something unfortunate has happened at home.
It hit on me that I should treasure and cherish those who are around me, called and asked on one another to check if the person is fine.
I should also live every minute and second to the fullest, tell myself that I am blessed to be here. No matter how hard life has hit you, it is still a blessing to be here than anywhere else.

2007-02-23T11:20:00.000+08:00

New Year hols has ended. I just pulled myself to go to work.

I was shuttling between homes during the CNY as the shopping malls are all closed.

How great if shops are opened, I can continue shopping with my 'hongbao' money.