it contradicts. just hope to make good use of all the time I have and not wasting my youth away.
stopped school for quite some time and hope to work doubly hard when school commences in july later this year. this will keep me really busy and grumpy because of the travelling here and there and having lesser sleep.

felt more fortunate as compared to those who suffered from illnesses, but less fortunate to those who have found the meaning in everything. or rather i have lost the meaning of certain things. Still, my 23 years of living is a fruitful one, seeing most things clearly and now, learning to take things easy because nothing is perfect in this world.

i am quite paranoid but it does not make me do extremes. Still rational. but sometimes, been forced to act irrationally. I see the difference in school and workplace now, and I think I learnt the most at work. For good or for worse.

i thought i know how to love but it seems like i'm born a loser in love. perhaps the wrong one at the right time or right one at the wrong time? life is all deception. Cheaters rule.
ms bunny
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